Stuck in a MomEnt

Alhamdulillah,
saya masih bisa bernafas dan berpikir..sudah lama ya tidak membuka blog ini
lebih sering bermain fb, bertemu teman teman lewat dunia maya,
dan bertukar komentar..

Dan karena kemarin ada masalah,
tulisan dan ide ide untuk di tuangkan di blog pun menguap begitu saja..
berharap menemukan sedikit semangat bertemu teman teman yang sudah lama tak jumpa,
tetapi memang pada dasar nya masalah itu berasal dari pikiran kita (saya) sendiri,
bukannya menemukan semangat, malah membuat saya semakin berpikir dan..
semakin merasa akhir-akhir ini saya jalan di tempat..

melihat teman-teman terus mengejar impian mereka,
saya justru semakin bingung apa yang saya inginkan, setidaknya dalam jangka pendek ini
langkah apa yang harus saya ambil..
rasanya seperti..benar-benar jalan di tempat..mengeluarkan tenaga, tetapi..
tidak bergerak kemana-mana..
tidak maju..dan tidak mundur (mungkin,,semoga)

sampai detik ini masih pikiran pikiran aneh ini yang mengganggu saya,
diiringi lagu dari U2

~Stuck in a moment~

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling, look at you. Ooh.
You gotta stand up straight, carry your own weight
'Cause tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

You are such a fool
To worry like you do.. Oh
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now
My, oh my

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh lord look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you cant gt out of it

I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass

It's just a moment
This time will pass

ps: lagu ini teringat saat mini reuni tadi siang bersama teman teman kuliah

Tapi satu yang saya tahu pasti, saya harus tetap bersyukur